Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Thank You & My Closet

Thank you all for that wonderful, lovely support
on here, on facebook, and in person!

I'm so excited about letting dreams become expansive
and seeing where they go!
(I promise that thank you and my closet will be connected by the end of this post.)

You see,
I spent the weekend purging my room,
getting rid of things
I don't need or use.
In order to prepare for these adventures.

And in doing so, reorganized my closet
and rediscovered some gems hidden in the back.
Which inspired me to actually create some outfits!

I've been rotating some pretty staid work outfits for the last year or so,
and need to spice it up.

I will be doing 'Krista's Closet' posts.
(Anatomy of an Outfit is sadly already used by another wonderful blogger)
I don't do high fashion.
I don't ever look polished.
I'm not super trendy,
but I will try to keep it entertaining!
I'll also be posting some items on Etsy,
to raise funds for said adventures.
I call this: Vermont business-casual.

 Jeans: Lucky brand
Shirt: Found on the side of the road in Barre, VT
Jacket: J.Crew Outlet
Hat: Carhartt from Salvation Army
Mug: Anthropologie

Friday, January 25, 2013

Year off (for reals!)

Remember THIS post?
About my year off?

Well, after seeing the thinly veiled panic in my friends' and family's eyes
when I told them I was taking a year off
in medical school,
I decided to finish medical school.

And THEN take a year off!

Medical school has been hard for me.
I know, I thought medical school was supposed to be easy too!
Such a shock!

But seriously, it's been hard beyond the endless hours of studying
and the 24-hour shifts.

It's been hard to find my place
in this system.

 Which makes me question,
my place in this system.

With that Saturn energy pumping,
I decided that I really needed to take a step back.

My life has been very wonderfully planned,
from high school
to college
to a stint in NYC 
to traveling before medical school,
(but really always knowing I was going to medical school)
to 4 years of torture medical school.
The next logical step is residency.

I had one foot hovering over that next step on the path,
with my letters of recommendation
and a draft of my personal statement
for residency applications,
when I decided not to apply.

I know this isn't a huge deal.
The world is wide.
And there are many lives to lead.
But sometimes your world gets so small,
you only see that next step,
and to not take it feels overwhelming.

Plus it is unimaginably awkward to tell
type A physicians who are grading you,
that you are taking a "year off"
and that 
you have no idea what you're doing with it.
Lots of blank stares with that one, man.

I've always been a big fan of the whole
"follow your heart"
But I want to clear the air...
That is not always an easy decision!

Lovely little things like doubt/fear/guilt sneak in and whisper...
how are you going to afford that?
so many people would kill to be in your position and you're going to waste it?
why do you think you deserve this?
what are you going to do?
don't you think you're just wasting time?
don't you have soul-crushing amounts of student loans?

But I can tell you,
when you stop listening to those voices
and make the decision your heart is begging for...
all you feel is...

So, I still have no definitely answers to the questions above.
But I'm only on this earth once,
and I certainly don't intend to let it pass me by.

Right now, I'm dreaming up plans for this year off.
 And it feels magical.
There is so much beauty in this life,
and so much more to it than 9-5, grades, and hanging on.
So feel free to dream with me.
What would you do with a year off?
I'm open to suggestions!

Tell me, what else should I have done?
Doesn't everything die at last, and too soon?
Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?
-Mary Oliver

Photos: Pinterest

Friday, January 4, 2013

So Saturn Returned...

 In Astrology, the planet Saturn returns to the same place in the sky it was when you graced this planet with your birth sometime around your 29th year.
This marks a new phase of your life, a crossing over, a threshold.  
A time when you take stock of all you have been given, learned and gathered 
through your childhood and young adult years,
decide what is truly you,
what you want to carry with you in the future,
discard the rest.

According to my birth chart,
Saturn returned 
in October of 2012 for me.

So, there's been some changes!
Stay tuned...